Hello everyone!!
jus felt so sad nowadays... i have a feeling that now everyone seems to dislike me or sth...
haiz.. i dunno what to do... yest. i shouted at caiyun cus she passed the ws to me, when i alr shouted like damn lot of times that pass the ws to sarahann.. and i jus felt like crying after that. im sorry!
im so confused, so pissed that i forgot its my own classmate. and she is helping karen to pass it up to me.. maybe karen said this: caiyun can help me pass this to lihui? ty.
yeahhh..
ARGH. i hate this..
recently... my sis say.. she went through though times like this... like.. emo and stuff... yeah.. and she said it shuld be normal for every teenage girls.. like my age.. so i felt better.. :)
but i still feel so emo, so sad... cus of my friends.. urgh.. y do we have friends in the first place? they jus make u angry, sad, emo, etc.. good things cant last forever.. or even long.
I just feel sooo unbalanced in this life of mine... im not sure.. i've got the good things that i wanted, etc... so y do i feel so.... ARGH I DUNNO!!!
wth is this man... every friend jus seem to dislike me... wad did i do?? what did i do to offend you? what flaws i've got? why dont u tell me how to change myself instead of like... disliking me and stuffs?
wtf. i hate this class ttc. except for some ppl which is okay... but.. in my life, up till now, theres not ONE CLOSE FRIEND. i cant really say rebecca is my closet friend.. for some reasons.. and i cant really say sarahann either.. shuxin, too. although they are my most contacted ppl.. i jus.. dun have.. that sense of belonging... do u get wad i mean?? maybe u dont...
plus.. my family problems.. need money, get into fights often, etc etc..
u dont know my life.. no one, except me, knows my life, so dun go round boasting that you know my life. u dont. i tell u, U DONT!
some ppl even dont even know that i wear specs. wth? i've been like.. wearing for like 2.75 years... and mostly in class, in school.. and u still dare to ask me if i got wear specs a not... im toking about those who is in the same class as me last year...
ohmygod. i really... dont know what to say... like... u dun really noe my existence, do you?
some of my this yrs classmates just... antisocial WITH ME and doesnt seem to like me and thus doesnt talk to me.. and most of the time, u(yes, a particular person) r STARING at me.. i dunno what i've done.. u do? tell me then.. i will try and change...
wth is this man.... and.. okay maybe i shall not say it here... cus a person who can read my blog is very close to that person so i shall not say..... but.. GET UR FACTS RIGHT BEFORE BLURTING OUT AND HURTING PPL'S HEART U IDIOT! u... i dunno what to say.. jus forget about this... noonono.. i cant forget this... i want, but i cant. sorry uhs, that person.
and the other person, urgh i dunno if she is just playing with me or teasing me... but this is TOO MUCH! urgh.
chill~~
wads wrong with my life?? it looked as if its turned upside down.
okay stop these emoing lihui... go look at some videos to cheer u up.
omg srsly.. is videos the only way to solve my probs? how about friends? can they help? WILL they help? ppl reading this by wadeva means(i've set this to only ppl i invite can read)... if u r reading this... i wish that u keep all these.. and my previous posts.. a secret... tyvm. i trust u, if u dun give me the trust, sorry. NO ONE can read my blog. :)